History

I know that I've stopped posting stories on here. But I've been debating with myself for a couple of months now on whether I should continue. I still don't know.

These are stories from my grandmother or about her that I know. But I've realized that I can tell my stories but I really can't give the history on most of them. And for some these stories may hurt, a lot. Do I dare continue? I just don't know. I know how she felt at times but I don't know what brought on those feelings. So would it be fair to write those stories?

I just got done posting on the facebook group that stories and history should be told if only to understand our family history better. I'm just not sure I want to be the one telling the stories. I love my family and I have always wished we were closer. But something was there that kept the family from bonding.

When we would go and visit Uncle Walter and family I was always so excited. His daughters, my cousins were so, I don't know the words. They were beautiful and sacred to me. It's hard to explain but for a long time I worshiped them for the Goddesses they were. Even Norma and Yolanda when I met them it was like seeing the Goddess incarnate. I thought they were the best things since sliced bread. Still do really. That's why this is hard.

Some of the stories will hurt. But they are the stories I know and remember. I finally have a connection with my cousins like I've always wanted. Do I risk losing it now? Should I? I just don't know. So if there is no postings I'm still thinking.